just can't do it

I know these blogs are supposed to be happy....but I'm just not. As a friend said God is testing my faith and I have prayed to become closer to him and I have prayed more than I have in a long time, so I guess this time is a test. I just want the hurt and the stress to go away! There is a reason God brings people in your life and takes them away, it's just very hard to accept especially when they have the type of friendship you had wanted with that person with someone else.

I have also been upset about the situation I left little samson in. I returned him to his owner to only leave him by himself with another dog locked up in a wooden deck with no visitors. She says someone goes by the house twice a day but I have yet to see a car there and have seen no food or water the past couple of days. I did file a complaint and the officer went out there twice and says the dogs are being cared for. I too have to stop going by the house because my heart breaks everytime I see him.

I hope my next blog I will have something happy to write about :)

Valentine's Day!

What are your plans for tomorrow's special day? I unfortunately have to work at Academy so James and I are celebrating Valentine's Day tonight by going to one of my favorite places~Olive Garden. My mom gave us a gift card so thanks mom! I think tomorrow before I go in we may go to an early afternoon movie. I would love to see He's Just Not That Into You, but I doubt James will go for that so I'll have to see what else is out? Any recommendations?

So I never updated you all about what happended with the little dog I found. Surprisingly last week I got a call from this lady who said "I think you found my dog". I met her at her house and I think I was more excited than her so I handed him over and just prayed she was the rightful owner. Well wouldn't you know that I drive by her house about 4-6 times a day and not once seen her car there. I pulled into the drive and there is a room I can see from the front that I heard 2 dogs barking. The one I could see was a dachsund. I thought I heard little sammy and called his name but nothing. I don't remember if I told you but this dog was not in the best condition~his hair was matted and when I bathed him the water turned completely dark. So I plan on calling her today to ask if I could come see him (because she offered if I wanted to see him I could) and find out why is she never home and is she taking care of him!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

Bad Blogger

So I have not been the best at keeping this up the past couple of weeks. I've been extremely busy at work and honestly should not be taking time out to write this. I've been a little down the last couple of days and without revealing the exact nature of what's going on I'll try to say what I can. It's never fun losing friends, especially when you didn't really do anything. I get sad every now and then about this person and I'm sad right now. I especially get sad when I'm watching the Bachelor because we were definately bachelor watching buddies. I get sad when I drive by this certain place we used to meet to eat lunch. I wish this person knew just how much I missed them. I may be wasting my time cause they may not even care that I miss their friendship. This person has befriended someone else and unfortunately I have to see that person almost every week which is very hard for me. If you will please pray that this hurt will go away because it has been almost unbearable these past couple of days!

Wednesday night church

You know how i talked about friends in an earlier post, well I have become friends with 2 girls that I met working at Academy. 1 of the girls was watching Sammy for me. But I have invited them to church the last 2 Wednesdays and they CAME! Actually 1 of the girls was supposed to work last night but she called in and when me and Jessy showed up there she was sitting on the couch! I pray that a seed has been planted in both of them and they continue to seek more knowledge and understanding about God. Jessy states she is a Christian but I'm not sure if she has ever been plugged into a church. Aislinn came to church with me awhile ago but hadn't been back since, but I started a bible study with her on the book of Matthew. That has kind of fell to the way side so I need to get us back on track.

So for all the Christians reading this please pray that God will continue to work on their hearts and that they find a home to worship, whether that be our church or another church! Praise God!!

Ohh and tonight I am chaperoning 7 teenagers along with one of our counselors for the drug court to watch the Harlem Globetrotter's! So I will post about that with pictures tomorrow!

Little Sammy

Last night after I got off from Academy I went to my friend's apartment, who is keeping little Sammy and told her I was going to take him home. He has been with her for a week! I brought him home and it didn't go over so well with James but today~to my surprise James took him out when he came home for lunch! This relieved a lot of my stress and anxiety about him being somewhat ok with the dog at our house. Now the question is how long do we keep him to find his owner and if we can't do we take him to a shelter or try to find someone to take him? I know he has some medical issues but I'm not sure what and how much it is going to cost to take care of anything. So stay tuned as I will report more on little Sammy!

Friends

So my visit back home was productive but I wish I would have had more time to visit with friends and my sister. I did get to visit my best friend from 4th grade! She is due March 3 with a baby girl (finally!!! love you Terri) and they are naming her Avery which I think is such a sweet name! I'm hoping to go down there soon after she is born. I was around for her 1st son's birth but was not there for her younger 2 sons! So I am making a point to come see Avery when she arrives! It was so good visiting with Terri too because we have been friends for so long that she gets me (and seriously I started crying while writing this)! She does not judge me, we may not talk for weeks but when I call it's like no time has passed and that is the friendship I miss! I have friends here but I often think if James and I moved back home would they still keep in contact with me, would we visit each other? Keeping those friendships definately takes work but for those that are worth it are worth the work! God puts people in your life at certain times and I'm so thankful that Terri has been a friend that has been with me throughout my entire life!

While I was home I spent time with my sister and got to visit my dad for awhile. Saturday night the three of us went to Chuy's, which is by far the best Tex-Mex place ever!! It was nice visiting with the both of them. We then went back to dad's and started watching one of the new James Bond movies but we were all tired so me and Deb went back to her apartment and crashed! I took Rascal along with me on the trip and he spent most his time with my dad. My dad loves rascal and I think rascal brings him joy which he really needs!

Busy week

Sorry I have not posted in awhile (actually I'm not sure who all reads this, it could just be me~although I know Kirsten keeps up with it sometimes!) But anyways my birthday was last Friday~thanks Faith and Kirsten for the birthday wishes~ Kirsten yes I did get your card and it was great! OK so for my birthday I asked James if I could go on a scrapbooking retreat and he said yes and it was so great! I got a lot accomplished and it was just nice to stay in PJ's for 2 days and be crafty!! Here are a couple pictures from the retreat: this was the cake one of the ladies brought and they had candles on it (thankfully not 29!)

This is sweet Asher. His mom is a really good friend of mine who I met at church. She actually got me back into scrapbooking after I finished the MFT program. He was blocking the light from his face while he took a nap!OK on to more serious business! On Monday I found this sweet dog roaming a busy road and my heart just went out to him. So I stopped my car got out and called him to come to me and he came! Ohh dog why did you come to me? Now I must do something with you!! I first went to my vet because he was literally around the corner and the man was completely rude! So Anna and rascal will no longer be in his care! I sort of panicked because I had a meeting I had to be at in about 15 minutes so I ran him home and put him in rascal's kennel. When I got back me and a friend gave him a bath because he was filthy and his hair was completely matted. I also found good size mass on the inside of his lower leg :( So then we went back to where I found him and started knocking on doors. NO LUCK! Not one person had ever seen him and a couple people said ohh yeah i think he belongs to that person or this person...well no he didn't! So yesterday I was a little more pro-active and I made flyers and posted them at 3 surrounding vets (including my ex-vet), a local grocery store, and Academy! I also called and placed a found ad in our paper which will run for 3 days. So for all you Christians out there I need prayers! This dog belongs to someone, although they took horrible care of him (by not grooming him) because he does not bark, he is house trained and he is SUPER lovable! Please pray his owners see the ads and contact me!!! Here are a couple pictures. I named him Sampson after my sweet little sammy I grew up with!

I am going to Austin today through Sunday so I may not post until next week so happy weekend everyone!